THIS IS GOING TO BE A FANTASTIC WEEK!! THE BEST EVER

Its 2:25pm and im headed for the saloon; my favorite place of all, to do my hair and nails...

im walking out of that door feeling revived and energized because that's the sole purpose of saloon right? to make and transform you into a finer being.

After i look in to the mirror and

AMIDST SO MUCH PAIN...

After watching in disbelief all the misfortune that have been taking place in Haiti, i felt so deeply touched and wished that there was at least something that i could do. even the mere clips shown on t.v can not begin to explain the pain that the casualties are feeling. i am certain that God who is the over seer of all acts on earth is watching over them. this is evident from the miraculous moments that were seen like when a baby girl was discovered under a collapsed building. this is just another clear sign that there is always hope even amidst hardships and struggle.

I was woken up by a terrible pain in my ankle in the middle of the night. it was so painful i failed to go back to bed... it had swollen up and i could barely walk!!! i had a remedy for this from the orthopedist who i had seen earlier, so while limping around the house for a few days i elevated the leg, at-I'm-not-so sure how many degrees and have gradually healed!

This is extremely minor compared to what the other people are going through but the lesson i derived from this period is that eventually the pain stops and healing starts to manifest. our scars are healed and we are renewed.

IF I KEEP THIS UP WHO KNOWS...

i set to jog/walk or do any form of exercise yesterday, after feeling really frustrated by the house. i had spent way too much time in it and wanted to re fresh my thought by being outside what was starting to feel like a claustrophobic box.

the sun was clearly out to get me! this is at about 4pm, and there is not allot of noise in the neighbourhood....yet

as i slope down to the next lane that joins the road to my home there are several large trucks carrying soil and bricks or something of the sort. they were repairing the road. this is a very good thing, but bad for me, because the dust was unbearable.

determined to do my run, i turned the other way, to take another path. the road was slightly busy and so my efforts to jog were killed by the constant inhale of dust! and with the heat mounting, (i truly had some determination)

wow, i was all fired up when going down make that jogging down a slope, at first,then even sprinted a bit just to show off because there were people walking by....i guess i felt they were thinking nice Chick jogging and she looks good while doing it...who know?

they were probably thinking does she have to jog under this heat!?!

then came the hill i had to climb. in life there are all sorts of huddles we go through, and I'm guessing this was one of them. i honestly started regretting all the junk i have been eating the past coupe of months and swore to change my diet because i felt like an elephant trying to lift myself!

i gained momentum when a certain guy (another race...not African) came into site. he was walking ahead of me. he eventually started running and so did i....did i mention i had stopped running?

so there goes a successful attempt at getting off my lazy bums and putting my body to work!

yaay me!!IF I KEEP THIS UP WHO KNOWS...

A CLEAR BLUE SKY

This day has again come to an end, with my failure to abide to a commitment i had made to myself...i vowed to start jogging once a day at list. either every morning or every evening. I'm now worried that if i can not stick to a commitment that i have made to myself, how will ever pull through when i decide to commit to those around me?

thus i have come up with a solution...that's not true i have no clue what i am going to do with myself, because i need to work my butt off so i can look as good as people i see on t.v! hahaha!! (I'm not that blond)

i just realised that i need to get fit, because i have a lot of time on my hands, and need to avoid getting too flabby or complications with my back etc etc etc. though it wouldn't hurt/ i could never complain if after all my hard work and exercising i magically evolve into a hot-bodied goddess! i can picture it now...flat tummy, a few abbes, toned arms!

TV IS A BAD INFLUENCE!!!

ugh, this has been an okay day, as usual, i sat an thought allot as i came to work in the taxi. thought and thought. then read a book. this book i am reading is on interpersonal communication and talks about disclosure...i am sure ill get the hang of it soon.

then another time consuming element was face book, which though i noticed i was passing my day away aimlessly, i carried on to take part. "oh, this is a really nice picture, and they look so nice!" that is part of my use less blubber instead of using my time to engage in a more constructive issue o took to looking at pictures of random people, watched music videos and now feel like a really useless 20 something year old....

help!!!

THE GREAT COME BACK!

IM BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ive missed blogging and feel so alive now that im back!!!!!

yaay me

the so-called "truth"

Today at work i was supposed to prepare an advert for this show that is supposed to take place soon....(its way over due) by the way. 

Any way, this so called "Professional" as i was made out believe was supposed to come in and listen to it, as well as direct me on how to make it.

So she ends up coming late, and so i had to do it without her and being an amateur that i am, i did all that i could to make it as good as possible.

 Well, it turned out that according to miss-know-it-all i had a "teenage voice" mixed with "laziness"...who the f@#* does she think she is!!  Just walk in entirely clueless and say that?!? 

I mean, she is just an overly bleached weirdo that came in yesterday... She really had the nerve to put me down (but didn't succeed.) 

I guess i'm over re acting and totally bummed out because i have this important-ish thing going on tomorrow and really need it to work out, and hearing what the waco had to say was just a bummer real BUMMER. 

And well, i was smiling while she laid down what she "honestly thought about me" but well if she only knew what I thought about her....fake!!from her phone accent i could tell what was coming my way some plastic chick designed to full the whole world well, (I'm on to u!!!biatch!) talking about me being  dull...I'm like the most color full and exciting professional she will ever meet.and has officially made on my list. am just soooooooooooooooo furious!!!heck she is lucky am good at faking smiles and politeness.

On a lighter note though, today has been a day to see all the fake and real people... ever had one of those in your life? well the type of person who for instance will lie about his career? and lie about what they want exactly? fake people are al over the place but i guess we have to pretend to be fake as well and move n with life.  

since i am running outer time, ill just some up all i had to say.

i really hope tomorrow goes well for me, because after all its a lot that i can  do at a good and reasonable price, so i want it so bad.

 just plan on going home right now and doing some exercise to get my blood flowing to right places in my body.

so agenda for tomorrow will be to is al those details down and truthfully, i a expecting really good news. And whatever happens i am ready to make the most out of it.  

And the quote id like to leave behind today is:

"if you can not touch the sky, you should at least be among the stars"

later... 

Bad Memories

Why do memories have to bounce back from time to time?? Why?!? I guess one minute you think you are having a great time,or that you are extremely safe and then the next it's the opposite. All of us make good decisions and bad ones.  And regardless, they all affect us. Just thinking about it now, life can be such a U-Know-What! its like in this life some people are designed to build you, while others to destruct you. I sometimes wish the bad ones would approach you with a tag on their forehead or something.

ive always hated the saying"bad things happen to good people"maybe because it applies so much to the events in my life.

So maybe not being such goodie two shoes all the time is the answer to my problem here. Think about it how come the worst and un deserving always get the best.

I was just thinking today;isn't there more to life than being born, going to school,getting a job and then marrigae and etc etc? But then again there is destiny, so if oe is destined to be a success and works towards it, then certainly it will happen. And yes, even better things happen to good people. and to top it all off, those that really love us will always be there . Love does conquer all.

In conclusion  despite my bad memories coming up all the time to haunt me and depress me i am sure that they have made me a better person in whole. Im sure more will come but i hope to get through them as well and make it a learning expereince. In the mean time, ama walk through life with a big smile on my face because i know greter things are yet to come this ordinary girl....xoxox