the so-called "truth"

Today at work i was supposed to prepare an advert for this show that is supposed to take place soon....(its way over due) by the way. 

Any way, this so called "Professional" as i was made out believe was supposed to come in and listen to it, as well as direct me on how to make it.

So she ends up coming late, and so i had to do it without her and being an amateur that i am, i did all that i could to make it as good as possible.

 Well, it turned out that according to miss-know-it-all i had a "teenage voice" mixed with "laziness"...who the f@#* does she think she is!!  Just walk in entirely clueless and say that?!? 

I mean, she is just an overly bleached weirdo that came in yesterday... She really had the nerve to put me down (but didn't succeed.) 

I guess i'm over re acting and totally bummed out because i have this important-ish thing going on tomorrow and really need it to work out, and hearing what the waco had to say was just a bummer real BUMMER. 

And well, i was smiling while she laid down what she "honestly thought about me" but well if she only knew what I thought about her....fake!!from her phone accent i could tell what was coming my way some plastic chick designed to full the whole world well, (I'm on to u!!!biatch!) talking about me being  dull...I'm like the most color full and exciting professional she will ever meet.and has officially made on my list. am just soooooooooooooooo furious!!!heck she is lucky am good at faking smiles and politeness.

On a lighter note though, today has been a day to see all the fake and real people... ever had one of those in your life? well the type of person who for instance will lie about his career? and lie about what they want exactly? fake people are al over the place but i guess we have to pretend to be fake as well and move n with life.  

since i am running outer time, ill just some up all i had to say.

i really hope tomorrow goes well for me, because after all its a lot that i can  do at a good and reasonable price, so i want it so bad.

 just plan on going home right now and doing some exercise to get my blood flowing to right places in my body.

so agenda for tomorrow will be to is al those details down and truthfully, i a expecting really good news. And whatever happens i am ready to make the most out of it.  

And the quote id like to leave behind today is:

"if you can not touch the sky, you should at least be among the stars"

later... 

Bad Memories

Why do memories have to bounce back from time to time?? Why?!? I guess one minute you think you are having a great time,or that you are extremely safe and then the next it's the opposite. All of us make good decisions and bad ones.  And regardless, they all affect us. Just thinking about it now, life can be such a U-Know-What! its like in this life some people are designed to build you, while others to destruct you. I sometimes wish the bad ones would approach you with a tag on their forehead or something.

ive always hated the saying"bad things happen to good people"maybe because it applies so much to the events in my life.

So maybe not being such goodie two shoes all the time is the answer to my problem here. Think about it how come the worst and un deserving always get the best.

I was just thinking today;isn't there more to life than being born, going to school,getting a job and then marrigae and etc etc? But then again there is destiny, so if oe is destined to be a success and works towards it, then certainly it will happen. And yes, even better things happen to good people. and to top it all off, those that really love us will always be there . Love does conquer all.

In conclusion  despite my bad memories coming up all the time to haunt me and depress me i am sure that they have made me a better person in whole. Im sure more will come but i hope to get through them as well and make it a learning expereince. In the mean time, ama walk through life with a big smile on my face because i know greter things are yet to come this ordinary girl....xoxox

WHAT A DAY!!!!HAPPY GOOD FRIDAY

I am thank full for life and all that it brings me each new day, but yesterday!!!!!It was just too much,that i cant remember feeling so low and let-down.And yet at the same time i just couldn't help but keep it all together other than feel so bad about myself the whole day.

So i was destructed the entire day by other things like working but deep down i kept thinking "what a failure" and constantly comparing myself to other people or just wondering what they will say about me if they knew.

But as the song T.I and Justin sang goes...the old me dead and gone!!LOLL!!! I feel like I'm thinking more clearly today, and the past is past even though it always tries to bite me in the arse unexpectedly.   Then today i witnessed someone trying to pull off being a totally different person from the one i had first met and thought i knew. Why cant people just be real and be happy with the way they were created!!!!! Being someone else just comes out all messed up and even makes it easier for people to predict what type of person you really are,....PRETENDERS, HYPOCRITES,HOLLA!!!!

I wont lie because i have been one or thee other at a point in life but don't lets just say i learnt my lesson as time went on.

So as i was still reminiscing about today, am over feeling sorry for myself and putting my failures ahead of my potential success!!!

I am looking forward to achieving beyond my potential because if i don't, no one will...i felt a quote coming on but oops i just forgot what it was to be exact so maybe another day.

SO LESSONS LEARNT;

*Even after a sudden fall, slowly pick yourself up and dust off that mud or dirt and find an opportunity in the next challenge.

*Feeling sorry for yourself is SO yesterday!!!thus leave that up to those around you because im sure they will have nothing better to do than gossip about your failure and never let it go...(damn colleagues)

*Nothing comes easy so no more playing around and acting like a complete blonde with people who have the time and energy to waste!!Some people just dont give a damn about their lives, and even you trying so hard to make them see that there is hope will never change them......they are easily bored and can find a new hobby at any time. DONT LET THAT BE YOU!!!I AM SO NOT GOING TO END UP A FAILURE ON SOME ONE"S ACCOUNT

*ooh and from the movie i was watching today called IGOR,(such a sweet movie by the way)

"its better to be good Nobody than an evil Somebody"

so there you have it, hope it will get you seriously thinking and make you be either a SOMEBODY or NOBODY!!! 

 

Another day gone by....

Monday is the most dreaded day of my week, but it always seems to go by smoothly one way or another. today for insatnce i felt so physchologically stressed out so early in the morning and to top it all off i had a serious headache....

Anyway,the day has turned out to be quite productive so I'm hoping that what i have researched about will come together beautifully.

The great lesson i have learnt is that despite what one person does and affects the rest, we should not punish them for mistakes that are not theirs. This I have just realised out of a plain conversation. WE all tend to judge even before getting to someone, thus will treat them differently. Just a simple "Hello"from a complete stranger today made my morning while i felt so low. 

Conclusion is we should give each person we come across in our day to day life the benefit of the doubt and not just dismiss them off because they look, act, dress or speak a certain way.

 

finally i have my blog,something ive needed, but have been putting off doing for so long.....

well, its monday again so that much said i have to get back to work in like a bit

yeaaaaaaaahhhhhhh got my blof started am so freaking exicted